thankful forn you even more

dear soulman,
as we sit here together on the couch and watch movies, I just can't imagine going through this without you. You are such an inspiration to me, your confidence and courage get me through these days. I go in tomorrow and I know everything will be ok because you'll be there. I look at you as you snuggle next to me and ask myself how I lucky I am for having you. You have stuck by my side through pain, moodswings and depression. I only hope you understand how much I need you not only today as I'm well but for the end of time. As I listen to you breath, I'm in awe of your strength. When I'm in your arms nothing matters. The world could explode and I wouldn't mind. Your patience and understanding is overwelming. As I prepare for tomorrow I can only smile, for I know when I awaken you will be on my side. we have gone through alot in our 9 years together, from birth to death, and all the struggles in between. I know I don't always show you how much you mean to me, and sometimes (well all the time) I put you last after our childeren, I want you to know your first in my heart. I could not go through this without you. On the outside, I'm strong and independent and don't need you but on the inside I'm childlike and lost. I just wish I could say this to your face instead of chickening out and typing you. I just can't look at you without crying. not tears of pain, but tears of shear joy for knowing you are mine, and are there for me. I'm grateful for you and all you've done. I love you until the end of time. I love you for you, no expectation, no demands. Just simply pure simple love.

treasure