To Roger, my beloved husband

Hi, Baby! I know that I'm a complete wreck right now and that worries you. I am sorry that I've tried to hide my emotions and concerns from you. I've just gotten used to doing that while you were sick last year. And I feel if I'm not trying to handle things on my own that I'm a burden to you. Last night you said I'm not a burden and that you want me to share things with you. Sometimes I forget that I married a wonderful man who wants to stand by me through thick and thin, hand in hand, forever. I love you so very much and I am sorry that I am worrying you. Please understand that I am grieving over the loss of my womb. I know we had already taken measure to not have anymore kids but there is just something so different about this finality of you CAN'T have kids... period.

I will be glad though once this is over and done with and I've decided to do whatever the docs say, even with hormone replacement therapy should they decide to take my last ovary. I won't be on my high horse about natural remedies because I want us to be happy and if that means HRT on a short term basis then I will do ANYTHING to make us keep moving forward!

I love you so very much and I am trying to deal with this the best I can. Hopefully the Wellbutrin will kick in soon and I won't be so weepy all the time.

I guess that is all I have to say for now. I love you and thank you for sticking with me through all these hard times we've endured together. I don't know what I'd do without you, my love!

Lovingly yours forever,
Reagen