To my wonderful Husband
by fairymouses
Ken,
Let me start by saying that you are only one that has the key to my heart. I love you and would not change anything about you. I love you as you are.
I know that you have supported me in all the decisions that I have made since we have been together. I do appreciate that you love me just as I am flaws and all.
This is the one decision that was the most difficult that I have had to make. I wish that we would have been able to hold and show the love to our children. This was not meant to be for us in our lives. My soul has been deeply wounded by the losses we have both shared.
I am trying my best to be back on my feet as soon as possible. If nothing else just to be beside you. Just being close to you means so much. You have healed my heart in so many ways. Now, the depths of my body is healing, both physically and emotionally.
Thank you for all that you do for me, every thing you do with me. With out any thoughts of resentment or anger.
You have always had the key to my heart, no one can compare to you.
I am giving you my sorrow, pain, and frustration and expecting you to understand with out words that I trust you with these emotions. I know that we are harder on those that are closest to us to understand with out question why we are lashing out with our most vile emotions.
I miss the times that we have just laid together and just talked about the day and not had another thought about anyone else or their thoughts of how we chose to live our lives.
We have had many losses that we have had to endure in the five years that we have been together. But I don't think that we would have made it through those tough times with out our love for each other.
I tell you many times during the day how much I love you. I still think that if I told you every minute of every day that you are special to me and how much I love you, it would still pale in comparison of how deeply my love and affection really goes.
I hope that this letter gives you a glimpse into my heart and soul. How much I need you and your understanding in this healing time that I am in.
Still very deeply in love with my husband
Your loving wife