Dear Honey,

You are an ***. I need support, not eye rolls...I need a hug, and to be told everything will be okay, not "you're not going to have sex with me? I am going back downstairs"...I need someone to be there for me, I need you to be my best friend, I need you to message my feet and legs without having to tell you to please help, or try and make bargains with me for it. I need you to understand that this is huge and scary and while it may not effect you...it majorly changes me. I am scared, I am so scared. I wish you could just be there...as a shoulder to cry on, as a hand to hold, understanding that even if I am angry, frustrated, upset, I need comfort and not scorn, it's not personal...it is fear. I don't want to do this alone....